T will be 11 months old in 2 days' time. Mommy is having a lot of mixed emotions. First of all, I feel kinda sad because time flies so fast and she will be 1 year old soon! I miss her baby time so dearly. When she was still a tiny baby, how I wished she would grow bigger and stronger like other babies. But now that she is bigger and stronger, I miss her being small and tiny and babbly 😢
But at the same time, I'm glad that she is on track with her milestones and growing well despite not eating much. She is also very talkative and lively. Sometimes maybe a little too hyperactive.
My baby grows up so fast! In a blink of an eye! It seems like just yesterday I was still pushing her out of my belly. And yeah everyone was right about how I was gonna miss her kicking in my belly. I sure miss that feeling lots. Wish I could keep her in my belly again.
I'm reluctant to have a second child because I'm afraid I will not love him/her as much. T is after all my first born, I have experienced many firsts with her. She will always be my favourite. Maybe I will need time to wean myself off from these feelings 😁
Speaking of weaning, I don't think I'm able to wean T off breastfeeding when she reaches 1 year old. She latches to sleep now, and she loves to latch. But mainly because I think I won't be able to handle it. Yes, I admit I'm selfish for thinking this way. But it's hard to let go. I enjoy every moment bonding with her while nursing her. I guess we will stop when she wants to. Till then, I'm just gonna enjoy every moment of it because it's not gonna last long anyway 😢 She has given me many sweet memories which I will forever cherish in my heart. ❤️
Slow down just a little, my darling. Mommy wants to keep this little you in her heart forever.