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My dear baby

My dear baby, who is not so baby anymore…

I hope you know that mommy loves you more than anything in the world. And everything I do is for you to be happy and well.

You are my first born. My every first experience having a child was with you. While you can’t wait to grow up, mommy silently wishes you would slow down a little to let mommy savour these short moments just a little longer.

I love you, my little darling. 😘

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Slow down just a little, darling

T will be 11 months old in 2 days' time. Mommy is having a lot of mixed emotions. First of all, I feel kinda sad because time flies so fast and she will be 1 year old soon! I miss her baby time so dearly. When she was still a tiny baby, how I wished she would grow bigger and stronger like other babies. But now that she is bigger and stronger, I miss her being small and tiny and babbly 😢

But at the same time, I'm glad that she is on track with her milestones and growing well despite not eating much. She is also very talkative and lively. Sometimes maybe a little too hyperactive.

My baby grows up so fast! In a blink of an eye! It seems like just yesterday I was still pushing her out of my belly. And yeah everyone was right about how I was gonna miss her kicking in my belly. I sure miss that feeling lots. Wish I could keep her in my belly again.

I'm reluctant to have a second child because I'm afraid I will not love him/her as much. T is after all my first born, I have experienced many firsts with her. She will always be my favourite. Maybe I will need time to wean myself off from these feelings 😁

Speaking of weaning, I don't think I'm able to wean T off breastfeeding when she reaches 1 year old. She latches to sleep now, and she loves to latch. But mainly because I think I won't be able to handle it. Yes, I admit I'm selfish for thinking this way. But it's hard to let go. I enjoy every moment bonding with her while nursing her. I guess we will stop when she wants to. Till then, I'm just gonna enjoy every moment of it because it's not gonna last long anyway 😢 She has given me many sweet memories which I will forever cherish in my heart. ❤️


Slow down just a little, my darling. Mommy wants to keep this little you in her heart forever.

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Throwback: My First Mother’s Day

Last month was my first mother’s day after being a mom!

The card I got from T’s day care center. Of course, she didn’t make it 😂

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9 months of joy

T has just turned 9 months old! It has been a wonderful 9 months journey with my little bubbly (sometimes whiney) bundle of joy. 18 months, considering the time she spent in my tummy. 😂

My little bunny growing up fast!

I have been super busy with my hands so full of T lately. To summarize, at 9 months T has achieved the following:

  1. Crawl forward (and fast!)
  2. Sit up on her own
  3. Hold herself up and try to stand
  4. Lift her knees off the ground while in crawling position
  5. Sprouted her 2nd tooth!
  6. Eat more solid food like rice, roasted veggies, toast, scrambled egg
  7. Clap her hands
  8. Throw tantrums (actually I think this has been going on for a few months 😂 oh dear)
  9. Shake her head to tell you she doesn’t want something

She has been a poor eater lately, refusing all sorts of food and made poor weight gain in her 8th month. However there is some good progress this month after I started giving her more meals. Now, apart from the 2 meals she has at day care, I try to give her an additional breakfast and sometimes supper. Usually it’s yogurt, cheese, bread or fruits. During weekends, she gets snacks in between meals.

Of course, being the picky eater she is, sometimes I don’t understand why non-food items would taste much better to her…

Who needs expensive toys when you can get the same kind of entertainment from cheap plastic bowls! 😂


She has recovered from a bad round of flu and cough and stayed healthy for about 2 weeks. But she is down with the flu and cough again now. What a bad season! The weather has been pretty bad too. Since she is 9 months old now, the doctor has prescribed medication for her flu and chesty cough – Ventamol expectorant and Zyrtec syrup. Both smell like crap. No wonder kids hate their medications.

She is still fully breastfed, although I have to start dipping into my freezer stash now as I’m finding it hard to pump at home while latching her at the same time. I used to do this, to collect enough milk for her next day’s supply. But since she is older now and more aware, she starts to grab at my pump or smacking it away. Pumping at work alone is not enough for her day time supply 😦  I’m glad I did pump diligently before this to collect some emergency stash. Now, I admit I’m a bit lazy and have slacked. I sometimes don’t even bother to pump at night or during weekends when she latches directly. Because you know, hard work keeping her hands to herself!

I hope I can continue breastfeeding her at least till she is 1 year old.

My little baby grows up just too fast! She is losing her baby looks and everyday I’m afraid of blinking because before I know it, she will be 18 years old and walking out of my life 😦  Mommy loves you and will miss you very much, my baby darling.

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Wish

Of all the things I ever wished for, you are truly my wish came true.


If I could have another wish come true, I wish you happiness. May your heart always be filled with love and joy, and may sorrow never find you.

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6 months old

Happy 6 months old, my little princess! 😘


At 6 months old, T is able to:

  1. Sit up with some support, she can sit in high chairs and booster seats now.
  2. Pay attention and give some reaction when I read her bedtime stories.
  3. Attempt to crawl (but can’t yet)
  4. Open her mouth wide with enthusiasm when she sees the spoon coming towards her during mealtimes.
  5. Hold up her arms to be carried.

Thank you my dearest T, for these wonderful 6 months of love. Although I still get annoyed at you sometimes for kicking up a fuss at bedtime and refusing to sleep (because well you know mommy’s seriously sleep deprived with a long backlog of chores to do while you are sleeping), but deep down inside I love you more than you can imagine and wish that I have all the power in the world to just stop time and hold you in my arms.

You know before you were born, I told daddy that you are never going to sleep in our bed because we need our privacy and you need to learn how to sleep in your own bed independently. Lately daddy’s been finding you sound asleep in the middle of our bed sometimes with your legs kicking at him. Well I know you’re not gonna stay tiny forever and sometimes I do like to cuddle you to sleep, hence sometimes my heart does jump for joy when you refuse to sleep in your own bed, and would happily pick you up and put you in our bed, right beside me 🙂 Yes, I’m guilty of spoiling you. But you won’t want to sleep beside me forever, and you won’t want me to carry you in my arms forever. So I’ll savour the moment while I can.


One day you will want to sleep in your own room, and your own bed. And I will feel a deep hole in my heart and a little bit colder in bed without you by my side.