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Throwback: My First Mother’s Day

Last month was my first mother’s day after being a mom!

The card I got from T’s day care center. Of course, she didn’t make it 😂

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9 months of joy

T has just turned 9 months old! It has been a wonderful 9 months journey with my little bubbly (sometimes whiney) bundle of joy. 18 months, considering the time she spent in my tummy. 😂

My little bunny growing up fast!

I have been super busy with my hands so full of T lately. To summarize, at 9 months T has achieved the following:

  1. Crawl forward (and fast!)
  2. Sit up on her own
  3. Hold herself up and try to stand
  4. Lift her knees off the ground while in crawling position
  5. Sprouted her 2nd tooth!
  6. Eat more solid food like rice, roasted veggies, toast, scrambled egg
  7. Clap her hands
  8. Throw tantrums (actually I think this has been going on for a few months 😂 oh dear)
  9. Shake her head to tell you she doesn’t want something

She has been a poor eater lately, refusing all sorts of food and made poor weight gain in her 8th month. However there is some good progress this month after I started giving her more meals. Now, apart from the 2 meals she has at day care, I try to give her an additional breakfast and sometimes supper. Usually it’s yogurt, cheese, bread or fruits. During weekends, she gets snacks in between meals.

Of course, being the picky eater she is, sometimes I don’t understand why non-food items would taste much better to her…

Who needs expensive toys when you can get the same kind of entertainment from cheap plastic bowls! 😂


She has recovered from a bad round of flu and cough and stayed healthy for about 2 weeks. But she is down with the flu and cough again now. What a bad season! The weather has been pretty bad too. Since she is 9 months old now, the doctor has prescribed medication for her flu and chesty cough – Ventamol expectorant and Zyrtec syrup. Both smell like crap. No wonder kids hate their medications.

She is still fully breastfed, although I have to start dipping into my freezer stash now as I’m finding it hard to pump at home while latching her at the same time. I used to do this, to collect enough milk for her next day’s supply. But since she is older now and more aware, she starts to grab at my pump or smacking it away. Pumping at work alone is not enough for her day time supply 😦  I’m glad I did pump diligently before this to collect some emergency stash. Now, I admit I’m a bit lazy and have slacked. I sometimes don’t even bother to pump at night or during weekends when she latches directly. Because you know, hard work keeping her hands to herself!

I hope I can continue breastfeeding her at least till she is 1 year old.

My little baby grows up just too fast! She is losing her baby looks and everyday I’m afraid of blinking because before I know it, she will be 18 years old and walking out of my life 😦  Mommy loves you and will miss you very much, my baby darling.

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Wish

Of all the things I ever wished for, you are truly my wish came true.


If I could have another wish come true, I wish you happiness. May your heart always be filled with love and joy, and may sorrow never find you.

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6 months old

Happy 6 months old, my little princess! 😘


At 6 months old, T is able to:

  1. Sit up with some support, she can sit in high chairs and booster seats now.
  2. Pay attention and give some reaction when I read her bedtime stories.
  3. Attempt to crawl (but can’t yet)
  4. Open her mouth wide with enthusiasm when she sees the spoon coming towards her during mealtimes.
  5. Hold up her arms to be carried.

Thank you my dearest T, for these wonderful 6 months of love. Although I still get annoyed at you sometimes for kicking up a fuss at bedtime and refusing to sleep (because well you know mommy’s seriously sleep deprived with a long backlog of chores to do while you are sleeping), but deep down inside I love you more than you can imagine and wish that I have all the power in the world to just stop time and hold you in my arms.

You know before you were born, I told daddy that you are never going to sleep in our bed because we need our privacy and you need to learn how to sleep in your own bed independently. Lately daddy’s been finding you sound asleep in the middle of our bed sometimes with your legs kicking at him. Well I know you’re not gonna stay tiny forever and sometimes I do like to cuddle you to sleep, hence sometimes my heart does jump for joy when you refuse to sleep in your own bed, and would happily pick you up and put you in our bed, right beside me 🙂 Yes, I’m guilty of spoiling you. But you won’t want to sleep beside me forever, and you won’t want me to carry you in my arms forever. So I’ll savour the moment while I can.


One day you will want to sleep in your own room, and your own bed. And I will feel a deep hole in my heart and a little bit colder in bed without you by my side.

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Cherish every moment

My dear baby T,

Tonight as I held you in my arms and watched you sleep so peacefully, a tear rolled down my cheek as my emotions bubbled up inside me. Remember before you were 2 months old, how you constantly cried for hours and I just held onto you not knowing what to do. And how you always fell asleep on my chest after all those episodes of crying and screaming. You eventually outgrew all the crying and screaming, but you also outgrew sleeping on my chest, which I missed so much.

And then there were days when you refused to sleep unless you were cradled in my arms, and I couldn’t put you down lest you would scream and cry the whole house down. Those days, I felt so angry and frustrated from the lack of sleep and not being able to do anything else. You soon outgrew that too, but then I started to miss holding you in my arms while you sleep 😢

Soon, you will learn to sit up, and crawl, and walk, and run. And you wouldn’t want to fall asleep in my arms anymore. I feel so emotional thinking of when it will be the last time I held you to sleep, kissed you to sleep, nursed you to sleep and held you close to my heart. With each new step you take as you grow up, there will also be my last times with you. For all these times we share, you might not remember it when you grow up. But I will always cherish them in my memory and in my heart. And for all the last times that I have to hold you, nurse you, feed you, kiss you and all… I will shed a tear when the moment comes for you to outgrow them. But I know you have to, for the sake of growing up. And I will miss those moments so dearly.

My dear baby T, I love you more than anything in the world. You are my world. Maybe some will say I spoil you, but from this moment on, I don’t want to have any regrets. I already have regrets from not doing enough for the past 5 months. I will hold you as much as I can, let you sleep in my arms for as long as you want, and everything else can wait while I watch you sleep, or make you laugh, or make you feel loved. Because I only have one chance of watching you grow up and you grow up way too fast. Soon you will leave our nest and spread your wings and fly.

You are God’s precious gift to me, my little miracle. However, I know that you are not mine to keep, as children are borrowed from God. Your time is loaned to us to be raised up to be independent and strong enough to fly on your own. Until then, I will try my best to make the most of this borrowed time we have together, and cherish every moment with you in my heart.

The days are long but the years are short.

Love, Mom.

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My Lovely Valentines

Happy Valentine’s to my little sweetheart… my little baby bunny 😘😘


I never knew I could love another human being this much until I carried you in my tummy and saw you for the first time after you came out. You have filled my days with joy (and sleeplessness, and frustration, and others) and made my life complete. You are my little miracle 🙂

And Happy Valentine’s to T’s wonderful daddy also. Thank you for putting up with all my nonsense and still love me despite me being an asshole sometimes. T’s daddy is not a romantic person who would buy flowers or chocolates (ok, sometimes he would if I nag him to buy some to satisfy my sweet tooth), but he would do lovely things everyday like:

  1. Fill up my car when fuel is running low so that I won’t need to make a trip to the station.
  2. Reload my touchngo card so I won’t get stuck at the toll booth cos I’m such a forgetful person
  3. Wash the milk bottles and breast pump at night so that I don’t have to.
  4. Walk the dogs so I can get more rest
  5. Ask me if I need any help even though I’m being an asshole and spitting fire like a dragon on tomyum overdose… 😦

And a whole load more of things he has done that I’m grateful for. Well, everyday is Valentine’s day but for today I would just like to express my gratitude to my better half. Although we sometimes fight and disagree with each other, but I love him from the bottom of my heart ❤️

We spent tonight (unromantically) trying to make T’s passport but failed to, as she would need to get her passport done at the immigration HQ. We’ll be travelling with T on her first overseas trip at the end of this year! Can’t wait… 😍 meanwhile, got to work hard on saving up as all the travelling is gonna do some pretty hard damage on our poor wallets…